So I've been counting the days since I've last done anything on the internet.  I'm surprised and saddened, really, that the most I've done in the last three months has been that silly post about my arachnophobia in Korea.  My deviantART's been dead, y! gallery has nothing impressive to show, and my livejournal has become nothing but a hub for my senselessness.  I really had to stop and wonder what the hell had just happened since I came back to Seattle.  I mean, I'm out of the environment that even brought on my hiatus from the online galleries to begin with, and yet I still haven't done anything worthy to post, not even a sketch to show to few of my friends through messenger.  Good grief, now that that's mentioned, I hardly ever gotten on any of the messengers -- MSN, AIM... even facebook (which I hardly ever use but you get my point).

It's apparent that my creativity has more or less been demoralized, that I have trouble keeping it constant.  Next to my break in Korea, school has been keeping me from doing anything beyond a doodle unless it's homework for art.  Fortunately, though, it's been getting better thanks to Zetht.  I wouldn't have actually gotten back into drawing if it weren't for our time together.  I would have forgotten that I love to draw and begin to despise Art 190 (Intro to Drawing) because I feel like I can't do anything right.  Still, it needs a little work, but I'm hoping that I'll get something up soon, whether it be worksafe or not.

But if anything, suggestions are more than welcome.  I may not be able to do all of them, but if anyone has an idea, I'll do what I can to draw it.  Knowing that I don't have a lot of readers on this LJ, I'll leave only a few slots here, including the one that Zetht asked me to do.  I may as well do the same over at y!G and dA if I can even muster the effort to log back in there [ohgod... i still need to finish that theme for the J&D club >_<;;;; ]

Annnnnd, go--

Sketch Requests
1.  Terry and Bruce from Batman Beyond
2.  Legato from Trigun
3.  Older rendition of Peter Pan
4.  Catman

Tags: college life

Why?  Because I just encountered one of those infamous black spiders in Korea peeking out between the dresser drawer and wall while I was writing and resting on the bed (which is pretty much the floor).  I had forgotten how big those fuckers can be, but my arachnophobia especially for large spiders just tend to make them look bigger.

...I hate how I'm afraid of a spider that's most likely not going to do me any harm unless I stupidly shoved my finger at its face, but I can't help it.  It doesn't help that the way it builds its web frightens me.  It's not like pretty, dew-drop-hanging Charlotte's web; it's like someone had taken a piece of a cotton ball and pulled it apart.  That does indicate a venomous spider, right?

I had just looked up identifying spiders and I'm starting to think it's a Black House Spider.  Blegh... I just don't want to get out of this chair.  I'm paranoid that thing will pop out as soon as I lay down.  I swear, that thing could tell I was staring at it because it hid itself back in the nook, twice.

Seriously, I don't mind spiders.  I just wish they were as pretty and charming as Charlotte.

/pathetic

Tags: fail
Current Mood: distressed

Been a long while since I've posted for anyone to see, eh?  Truth be told, I've been private posting on LJ for the past several entries.  I'm still here for anyone curious about my random blurbs.  I just needed to meditate on my own for awhile and surprisingly this blog proved useful for that.

Lots of things happened since I last visibly posted, but the majority of it is still the same deal.  While I'm still getting frustrated at certain points (proof is my eye turning red again), I'm relatively happier.  I've been trying to reconnect with a few friends to whom I haven't spoken in ages while keeping up with friends like naisa , but other than that, I'm working on towards a goal that I've been wanting to fulfill since forever: art -- but more specifically, animation.

Whether I have my parents continued support in UW after fall quarter, I'm going to be preparing for the best and worst times. 

With that in mind, I've been mulling over the idea that I may need to create a new blog and use that for the more professional side.  If that does happen, then I'm going to be turning LJ into a more personal place for me to write.  But we shall see in the future.

Last night I wrote my parents an email telling them what happened after a meeting with an art adviser. You can figure as much that I made yet another set of changes to my plans. Long story short, I was reconsidering my financial options, thinking that I was probably really better off going to AI and getting a bachelor's in Media Animation & Arts rather than staying in UW for an art degree and then going there for an associate's. Plus, it turns out that Art 190, the class I need in order to declare art as my major, is only reserved for freshmen and sophomores. Technically, in terms of credits, I'm still a sophomore after this quarter, especially when I'm about to drop that 3-credit class and that's another story to be told. 

Anyway, I told my parents what the adviser had said about Art 190. She had suggested that I go to a community college instead to get the equivalent at a lesser price and perhaps even take care of the remaining science credits I need for graduation.  I also included in the email about what I may have to do when it comes to housing and schooling next year. I really tried to be as humble and courteous as possible, but unfortunately I may have turned out sounding snarky in some of my writing. Sadly, my subtle ways of being sardonic gets the best of me at times, sneaking into my writing and voice.

As for dropping that class for Human Evolution, I realized I can't keep up with it while I need to focus on Physiology. It's not that I don't want to take the class. I just simply can't do it with a more pressing 5 credit Natural World class on my plate.

I sent the email way past midnight, feeling uncomfortable but tired. I finally went to sleep after what seemed like forever only to wake up a few hours later to my mom calling me at four in the morning.

She had read the email, though she still couldn't understand some parts of it. Thankfully, she kept her voice at a calm level which helped a lot for me to not unwittingly get argumentative with her. The main point of the discussion was that she wanted to understand what the adviser had told me and why I made it more difficult by saying that I'm going to have to go to a community college.

Imagine my surprise when my mom said she'll try and talk to my dad about allowing me to at least take Art 190 and still pay tuition. I really didn't know what to say or think, other than feeling timid and cautious.

We talked more and my mom said she really wanted me to stay in UW at least. She told me that when I had said that I planned on staying in UW as an art major, she said she at least felt assured that I didn't want to leave a college that I got in. Of course, she added that whenever I mention about going elsewhere and getting a different degree, she thought that I was only making it harder for myself, and hence worried over the outcome of my decision. Sometime afterward, Dad had returned (I could hear the doorbell at her end) and she said that she'd go ahead and have a talk with him.

An hour or two pass and I get a call back from Mom again. She told Dad of my predicament with Human Evolution, that it was going to affect my GPA. It wasn't unexpected that Dad was going to be upset and disappointed, especially after I had written him an email detailing my first week. I made it seem like I can do it, despite my dad suggesting that I drop the class for something else. Basically, Mom told me that Dad feels like I don't trust him when it comes to taking classes.

I will be giving him my full apology (yet again) for not listening to him and for wasting even more money now (i.e. tuition forfeiture fee) when I could've dropped that damned class in the first week. I really do feel like an idiot, thinking that I could tackle two sciences like that...

So... I've pretty much became an even bigger disappointment to Dad. I've somewhat become indifferent towards that word, but it still does sting my ego at times. It's not just the fact that I keep discrediting myself towards my parents, especially Dad, but it's also that I'm not as good of a person as I thought I would be.

No matter, I'm done with making mistakes and changing my mind constantly when it comes to academics. I just hope that... actually, I really don't know what to hope for when it comes to my relationship with Dad. Well, I guess I can only hope for making amends with the man.

Tags: college life, drama, meditation

by definition: cute, lovable furry critters that are a cross between of an otter and a weasel.

yes, i've been drawing them for awhile now.  you can't blame me.  if anything, you should point your fingers at Zetht.  she got me into this, but even if it weren't for her, Naughty Dog's Jak game series is pretty damn fun.  these two, though, are just hers and my OCs based in the game-verse.  the ottsel to your left is mine and his name's Tre; the one to the right is Corgal (aka Corgi) and he belongs to Zetht (you can also check her out on y! Gallery). 

i'm gonna be showing this to her later for Corgi's colors.  i'm only posting the WIP of this now since this journal is supposed to be an art scrapbook.

and here's a couple more oekakis that i'll put here.


this one was done out of pure boredom mixed with insomnia.  i actually drew him for the second time (you can find him on Tegaki), so i may do something with him in the future.


and here we have human!Daxter (in the fandom, it's assumed that he can change back between being an ottsel and a human) and Jak.  this was drawn yesterday because i had a silly inspiration to do a post-Valentine's pic.

Tags: fanart, original characters, scrapbook art

haha.. i really tried doing a different style, something a little more cartoony.  but obviously, i need a lot of practice just so it'd be just as good as what i do now (after much toiling years).



though i am beginning to wonder if it makes any difference on what media i use.  i noticed i do have different control over digital programs and traditional media.  we shall see in the future.

Tags: original characters, scrapbook art

well i meant to have more done, especially since i told naisa that i'd have them posted here.  but due to a major misunderstanding on my part, i am stuck with doing a late late assignment for English (this is the only mix up i'll tolerate for the quarter).

but here you go, a quick and sketchy oekaki of a fun pairing.  and i say 'fun' because it's always hilarious finding innuendos in situations with these two.


"Youse got pretty blue eyes."
"Jack, you're getting a bit close."

Tags: scrapbook art, slash

for those who can't access y! gallery or deviantART, i figured i can make a final cross post of the Ice Coffee comic on LJ.  mangabullet's not going to work, because it's a bit disorganized :L

well, here it is, the first page of the first chapter -- enjoy.

Tags: comic, ic01, ice coffee

for someone who really hasn't the time (and energy) to work on them, i had a couple new ideas come into mind.  i actually do mean to complete a project someday, but for now, all i can do is draw or write random drabbles.




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Tags: original characters, scrapbook art

it's quite an interesting quiz.  i found this via a friend's dA journal post and i had to try it myself.

this was my result thus far:

Your result for The Sexuality Spectrum Test ...

Bi/Slightly Gay

You scored -8 (-52 being completely gay, 0 being bisexual, and 52 being completely straight)

i think this came out rather close to accurate, if you ask me.  granted, i'm only going by my little "off the record" experiences with people and my first official relationship with a girl, so i guess we'd have to really see in the future if i get any closer or deviate from the "Bi" mark.

Tags: quiz